Sometimes I feel as there is so much to say, and yet, I just don't have the words to use. The Lord has really been working in my heart and life to strengthen my weaknesses and build my character. It's hard to have people point out your flaws, but so amazing to see how God can use the criticism to mold you into the person He wants you to be. That is all I care about. Who does HE want me to be and what can I be doing to continue developing into that person? I am so thankful that I was brought up in a Godly home and no matter the circumstances (and we've seen some pits), I was always shown that following Christ wasn't what we did on the good days, but what we did ALWAYS! So, thank you, Dad, for being the strongest man I know...
Well, that was way more open than I typically chose to be....
For those of you who maybe just want updates on my beautiful little girls... here it goes. Addisyn continues to be the sweetest little baby I have ever met! I'm not even exaggerating. Often when we want her to take her pacifier to help her fall asleep, we'll have to keep saying "Stop smiling!" because she is constantly dropping it. ;) She is just the sweetest little blessing and what we feel God sent us to "off set" the "terrible twos". Addisyn is a laid back people watcher. She plays with her toys when she wants to, but is perfectly content to just lay on the ground and watch the people around her. She loves to sit up, but currently has no interest in rolling over. In fact, laying on her belly is one of the only things I can think of that I know she will not enjoy.
Brooklyn is, simply, awesome! :) She is dramatic, sweet, EXTREMELY caring and concerned for any and all, girly, and often naughty! We are amidst the whining, crying, stubborness, saying "no" phase of life (well, is it really a phase?), but she can be in time-out one minute and the next minute have us rolling on the ground laughing. Brooklyn loves her sister and is always concerned for her well being. I can always count on her to provide a pacifier or burp cloth in the nick of time. She is excited for the day when Addisyn can play with her (and so are we!).
I love both of my girls so much and I am so grateful that I have been given the opportunity to have this experience of motherhood. I don't take it lightly or for granted. In the past few months there have been many losses of babies or babies with complications in "my" world. My friend (and awesome hairstylist) Aimee, lost her little girl in her 22nd week of pregnancy, her friend (whose blog I read constantly) just lost her son after two short weeks, and my very good friend, Kat and her family, have been facing so much with their sweet baby Carter since he was born in January. I remember how shaken I was when we had to take Addisyn to the NICU at 4 days old for a 95 degree temperature. We didn't know or understand what was going on or how bad the outcome would be and it was hard not to consider the possibility of losing her. I can't imagine being in these ladies shoes, but I am so thankful that they have all clung to God. I am just so thankful!
